China X Reader Runaway

China... He must be pretty worried now. Probably furious. I'm sure he's now running around desparately, trying to find me. Telling all his brothers to help him search. I must have scared him. But I'm now more afraid to go back. He would be very mad at me and I would have to listen to him shout for hours. I don't want that anymore.

Not that he has ever done anything bad to me. No, he never wanted to hurt me. He wanted to keep me safe. To protect me from everything. He loved me very much, he probably still does. But I'm sick of that "love".

He promised you a wonderful life and you believed him. You wanted to know what life with him was like. It was comfortable first but as time passed, you got to know him too much... He was cheerful and nice on the outside and dark and terrifying on the inside. He didn't know but you saw him treating people so bad. You ignored it first and tried to forget but it kept repeating. Soon you got to know how powerful he actually was but he never showed you directly. You stayed quiet and hoped for the best.

You never... Never wanted to see his violent side. But soon you had to as he kept fighting against other countries and it scared you. You got scared he might do the same things to you. He didn't treat you like before, after he started a war, that was the only thing he really concentrated on. You had never been so scared before.

It only got worse at the world conference. As long as you stayed around him, everything was okay, then you only went to get something and when you returned, you had to face him being mad and lecturing you for a long time, he didn't even care that you two were late after breaktime. You didn't even understand why he was so worried and brought up even random things that weren't perfect about you to make you feel worse. He treated you as if you were his property and you weren't allowed to make decisions on your own anymore. He hadn't been like what he used to be...

You were trapped. You would have never denied that you were safe with him and never lacked anything. You realized you had been locked in a golden cage and you didn't know how to escape. You started thinking about how you could disappear from him and wanted to find a place where he couldn't find you.

Another world conference was coming up. This was your chance to flee. He dressed you in nice clothes again, that happened more and more often that time. You couldn't even wear your own clothes anymore. However, you still sneaked in some of your own clothes he didn't know well. You waited for a while then told him you'd be back in a short while. Now was your chance.

You quickly found a room you could use to change, tore his clothes off and put on yours in less then half a minute. You were shivering and sweating but you had to do it, you just had to. You were ready. You exited the room and ran immediately. Far, far away from the meeting, even farther from China. You knew he would be busy for a while but who knew, he could have came after you. You ran as if someone or something were chasing you.

When the night arrived, you were still walking but you didn't know where. Anywhere was alright, you just didn't want to be around him. Never again. But you still needed to find a place to stay. And it was your lucky day. China never knew you were friends with Sweden (or any other country you like, feel free to replace Sweden with anyone but I'd run there) and you were never that happy to bump into him before. He was nice enough to let you stay at him and you were infinitely thankful to him.

Maybe I should call him... I don't want him to go even crazier and attack others, thinking they have me... Maybe for now he was stupid enough to go to Russia...

"WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?!" He yelled immediately. "China..." "Come back immediately, stop making me worried with your stupid jokes, I've already got enough things to make me stressed!" You held the phone farther from your ear as he kept complaining and complaining...

"China..." He didn't stop. You sighed and raised your voice for the very first time with him. "SHUT UP!" All you heard was shocked breathing in the phone. "Listen... " You clenched your hand into a fist, trying to gain more confidence. "Listen to me this once. I'm... so sick of everything. Don't even look for me." Your body trembled but your voice never cracked or shook. "I don't want you anymore..." "What... Stop fooling around and come home! ... Please. Come home, I just love you too much, I don't want to lose you..." He was suddenly much calmer, but he sounded like he was about to burst in tears. "My love..." You whispered. "Yes?"

"I'm never coming home again."