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OC Transylvania: Put an end to my pain

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Stop tearing me. Stop fighting over me like greedy dogs over a dry bone. You are hurting me. Stop dragging me from one side to the other, it makes my body more and more worn. It makes my soul more and more tired. And all I want is to be left alone to finally die in peace. Why do you make my agony longer?

None of you is the good or bad guy anymore. By now I'm attached to the both of you. I can't remember who I used to be. The pieces that make me are from you two, you two make me who I am. If I belong here or there, I don't know anymore. I'm conflicted. I cannot decide. I don't know. But I hear you two fight over my head, and you yell, but none of you can hear that I am the loudest one screaming.

I don't want to be here. I hate both of you. I don't want to go back there and I don't want to stay here. I want to be alone, or in loving hands. All that surrounds me is hatred. Set me free, or let me finally die. Kill one part of me, so what stays of me won't feel misery.  

When I was strong, I didn't hear all this, I could cover my ears. Now I hear every word, I'm forced to listen. Every word from you drips of venom. Your arms are always ready to fight, your hands always ready to grab me and pull me, drag me back and forth without paying any attention to me, without noticing my shrieks and begging, without noticing how much I bleed while you're ripping out parts of me.

Stop it. None of you is better. Both of you is terrible. Both of you are selfish people. You only think about yourselves. I'm choking, crying, dying, and you don't care. You both just keep me tied. Around one wrist is the blue-yellow-red, around the other one is the red-white-green chain. You can tell me whatever you want, but you cannot convince me they aren't just chains, colour makes no difference. They, and you are the same.

Let me go, be on my own. Or destroy me completely until it's not worth fighting for me. Let me come alive again and see, or kill my people and bury my country. Put an end to my pain.
I'm mastering the "how to put real life problems into fanfics" thing.
So, about Transylvania... The piece of land Romanians and Hungarians keep fighting for for ages. Must be tiring when there's nothing you can do while people fight over you and you just want quiet. And stuff I'm tired to write. I love that colorful chain thing.
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IAmAnaFoxy's avatar
Well this I understand!
I like the comparison you've made and it also reminded me of situation with Ukraine tearing itself between staying with Russia or dating with the EU :D