Prussia X Reader Forced Smile

"Of course I'm okay, everything's alright, don't worry." You lied with the same smile everytime someone asked if you were alright. How could have you told? They could have never helped you if you told them so it was just fine.

It was your little secret that you almost drowned in your tears almost every single night. And you never knew this would happen. Everything was so great at the beginning, when you and Ludwig got together, you went for dates and you ended up moving to him too. But something went really wrong.

Slowly, he changed for some reason. Knowing that he had you, he didn't worry so much about you anymore and he seemed quite effortless in keeping your relationship. You felt like getting you was just one thing on his to do list and now that is was done, he put you aside.

He spent more and more time in his room, sitting at his desk, doing work. And you could never disturb him, he always got so angry if he was interrupted in his work. With a sad sigh you just looked for something else to do.

He always promised to spend time with you "soon" but later he barely ate or spoke with you. You were with him, yet still alone. He was in his room and you in other parts of the house. Or sometimes when you got sick of sitting alone, you went out to party with the Bad Touch Trio or visited Feli or anything that made you forget your loneliness.

You only regretted going out when you got home to find an even more frustrated then usual Ludwig, whining about how much he missed you. He was so selfish and you couldn't protect yourself. He then took you to his bedroom and you were his toy for the rest of the night. That was how he wanted to get rid of the so much stress, he wanted you to make him feel good. And you stupidly served him, not even knowing why you wanted him to be happy anymore.

Your love for him turned into hate and scared anger and his love for you was shown as painful bitemarks and bruises after those nights. But he didn't know what he did to you, he couldn't see in the dark and you always covered your wounds at daytime. And you still didn't understand why you didn't want him to feel guilty.

Feeling ignored and depressed again, you decided to go out to drink with Gilbert, Ludwig's brother, the rest of the trio was somehow busy that night. Just before you met him, you managed to put a smile on your face and you were ready to 'party' with him. He told you he would pay for your drinks that night so you drank without worries, maybe even a bit too much.

And everything went according to Gil's plan. You couldn't know but secretly, he had feelings for you too, which he would never admit. But now that Toni and Francis weren't around, he wanted to take the chance to get closer to you and then... Have you in his bed.

Yes, he knew you belonged to his little brother but he noticed that lately you've been spending more time with him, and that you seemed to have more fun with him. And in case Ludwig asked why you didn't go home, he would have said you just got too drunk and his house was closer and he let you stay for the night.

He watched you giggle with a blush on your face for hours before noticing that it was getting pretty late. So he convinced you to leave, payed for the drinks and since you couldn't really walk anymore, he carried you in bridal style to his house.

He was so proud of himself that he could get the things he wanted so easily. You didn't resist at all, but mostly because you didn't know what he was planning to do to you, and you were too drunk to care now. You trusted Gil so you knew nothing bad could happen to you, that's why you didn't stop drinking so soon.

When you felt soft sheets under you, you relaxed immediately. Your head was getting too heavy anyway, now that you didn't even have to try sit or stand straight, you felt like you were in heaven. All you wanted was a nice long sleep.

You just felt disturbed when you didn't feel your skirt on yout thighs anymore. Actually, you didn't feel it anywhere. You squirmed tiredly and forced yourself to look up at the smiling Prussian whose face was just inches away from yours. You wanted to ask but you couldn't make a sound.

Soon his lips softly pressed against yours and after a second, you just closed your eyes again and lazily kissed back. You felt guilt for a moment only, you were way too tired to care now about your horrible boyfriend. Now you had his awesome brother kissing you, now how much better was that!

The kiss slowly became more and more heated, your tongues danced together and Gil was able to earn sweet and cute moans from you too. He gently stroked your cheek first, then his hand slid to your arm, then down on your chest to lift your shirt up and carefully take it off of you.

And this was the very first time you resisted that night. You suddenly remembered your wounds that you didn't want anyone to see. "No, Gil, no..." You whimpered but he didn't listen and ignored your resistance. You still tried to cover your shoulder but you were too slow and it wasn't hard for him to notice the bruises.

"Nooo..." You moaned and tried to pull your arms over you to cover yourself and you pulled your legs up too. For your bad luck, you revealed more bruises. And you really hoped that it was just a dream and somehow you'll wake up next to Luddy after a crazy night.

But that really wasn't your night. Gilbert was now just staring down at you with worry and anger in his eyes. Who, who in the hell did this to you? He couldn't believe it was his brother but he needed to know.

He carefully cupped your cheeks and turned your face to him. "Hey, listen to me. Can you still hear me? Hey, who made these wounds? Don't they hurt?"

You groaned again and with a loud sigh you forced your eyes open again. "It's fine..." "Don't lie, just please tell me alredy." You heard his worry-filled voice. "Who did this?" Now you knew you had no chance to hide anymore. You tried to find his eyes with yours and whispered. "Ludwig..."

"What?! Ludwig? How could he? Are you serious? But... Why? What? He loved you!" It was so rare when you saw Gil this concerned. Honestly, it scared you a bit. "Gil..." He suddenly held your hand tightly and leaned close to your face again. "Tell me, please..." He begged. "Gil..." You repeated but now suddenly with tears running down on your cheeks.

"I don't know... He hurts me... He's too rough... And it hurts..." "Why don't you resist, damnit?!" "Scary..." You replied with the same sleepy voice. "I'm afraid... He gets mad and... He's bad..."

You couldn't see him but you gave up trying to look at him anyway. But he was still holding your hand tightly and he kept it close to his lips. "Tell me more, please." He asked before planting a comforting kiss onto your hand.

"I don't want to go back. Gil, help me, save me from your brother!" You begged him desparately. Your heart felt so much lighter now that you could finally get it out to someone. It didn't matter where or to who.

The last memory you had that he held you tightly to himself between soft sheets and you slowly cried yourself to sleep in his comforting arms. Maybe he kissed you more, but you couldn't remember.

You woke up with a headache in the same bad though. You were alone there now and a weird smell hit your nose too. It smelled like some herbs but you weren't sure. You only got to know what it was when the older Beilschmidt stepped into the room, sat next to you and told you that it was just a cream that helps wounds heal.

You blushed horribly and you felt really ashamed. You got drunk, slept in one bed with Gilbert, he saw your bruises and now he took care of you, you immediately regretted drinking so much last night.

"I talked to Ludwig." He started and you quickly looked at him. "Oh? About what?" You blinked, being still confused. "Well, he wasn't happy at all. But now you're safe. You're free, I'll take care of you instead of him now." "What, what did you say to him?" You jumped closer immediately at that sentence, almost getting onto his lap. He sighed softly and hugged you close.

"I told him I saw the bitemarks and the whip's bruises. It's horrible, you're so fragile, you can't bear such thing. And then he calls me an idiot, tsk..." He turned his head away with an annoyed blush.

He just blushed even more when you pulled his head closer and planted a long kiss onto his cheek. "Thank you so much..." You whispered and you were really embarrassed and even more scared of Ludwig now. But Gil stroked your back slowly and whispered again that you didn't have to worry anymore and that he was going to protect you, no matter what.

You curled up on his lap, crying thankful tears. He was holding you tightly and you hugged him as tight as you could too. He then slowly pulled the blanket over you and kisses your head gently. "Now sleep some more, you didn't sleep much. You cried the whole night, you should really stop. You look really unawsome now." He pouted. "I don't like that."

You just smiled and snuggled his chest a little more. You trusted him like always. In the end, you fell asleep in his arms again as he carefully rocked you to sleep.